All of my poetry and all of my prose is gone...!!!

The old HD of my old computer was wiped...and trusting in a lazy friend to save my files...well, let me say that I felt like strangling him for a big while. Most of my poetry made it into paper first, so during my upcoming vacations I am going to have to dig through all of my notebooks and papers and overall junk to find them. Unluckily, my prose, was not that lucky. Most of it was crap to my eyes, except my erotic stories, which were not many, and which I remember for the most part, but the rest, a compendium I called The Manor, is completely lost. A pity, The Manor, although pretty extensive, was so far my most ambitious set of writings.

The Manor was very intimately tied to me, as it was my way to explore the halls of my soul and my being...it was a way to exorcise me from myself, but, I'll the take the demolition of that dark empty manor as a signal to instead build something new.

But, alas, college is taking a good grip on me. Somehow my social life has gone up, haha, all of a sudden I am somehow everywhere seeing and spending lots of time with friends, which I find awesome really.

A lot of things have changed, yet I know I am not yet on that other side I need to go to, I am still in that transition, I am still swimming in that sea.

Life is nonetheless great, beautiful, mysterious...I am still scared, stepping into the unknown, but with a good grip on faith, strength, and patience.

Also, operation humbug is up this year, once more. I greatly hate Christmas...but for fucks and God's sake, I will try to like it!!